Light Switches - Development💡

 I was looking through my previous ideas and thinking which one do I like the most, and which one has the most potential to be moved forward. I really liked the mark-making I did from my interviews, one drawing in particular. 

The drawing I did representing light switches. I thought how can I develop this. Size? What would happen if I did this on a bigger scale? Enlarge the pattern?

This is what I did. I practiced first in my sketchbook. Then took a large piece of drawing paper and drew my pattern, over and over again, creating this.

I love how it turned out. I think as a big piece, it had much more of an impact. I would really like to enlarge it even more, maybe even covering a wall. I could definitely see this as some sort of wall covering or wall paper. Possibly for an OCD awareness meeting? A counselling group? The face of their charity.

I think the repetition of this pattern resembles two things: one, being those intrusive thoughts I tackle. The fear growing and growing, getting bigger and louder as time goes on. Two, the actual compulsion of switching lights on and off and going to check constantly. I used to do this, and was something I struggled with but over time I have fought and learnt that I do not need to do this compulsion anymore.

Whilst packing up, I rolled the sheet of paper up and had an idea for a photo. What would happen if I took a photograph of the pattern from the inside, all rolled up? What effect would this have? I tried and really love this outcome too.

This idea of a spiral, of everything - the thoughts, the compulsions, the actions and routines, the fear and worry. All leading to a dark place, one that's very hard to get out of, mentally. I feel the photos really cover how OCD makes me feel at points where it gets too much. I really like the variety of focus, where the foreground is blurry, however it starts to get clearer as you look down. It is very perceptive and visually looks really appealing. 

I definitely want to take this pattern forward in someway.

Some pages of documentation in my sketchbook: